Happy after such a long time.

Life has been pretty much harsh on me these days, especially since the last few months. Not talking with my crush was way better than having forced to ignore her, which, unfortunately, i'm onto these days...... And i know its all my mistake. She was never mine, nor would she be in future, but something inside me still remains attracted to her, though her public declaration of not liking me anymore has given me a lot of pain and anger...

Anyways, as i said, i m happy after a long long time. Reasons ? I went to the swimming pool today. Yes, i know, so dumb of me to be happy for such a lil reason. But hey, this was the first time i ever put myself inside a swimming pool (leave aside the tales of rivers or ponds, but experiences are in dearth there too ! ) The blue base of the Swimming Pool shone bright beneath the clear water, and i, in my black trunks, pink swim-goggles and red rubber cap ( Imagine how trendy i wud have been looking !!),was right there in the middle, ready to teach myself how to swim. Had it not been Praddy, i would definitely have passed my entire slot standing in water. But he was over-enthusiastic to teach me the basic moves.
The white flood lights shone on my back, while i struggled hard kicking back the water, being the only person sporting the pink goggles in the entire pool. Swimming may be fun, but learning how to swim is definitely not. You get easily exhausted by kicking back the water, and its kind of frustrating to see other people swim past you while you just practising how to keep your body afloat in the water or how to exhale in water ( no inhale in water, buddy, else be ready to gulp enough water to choke yourself out !!).

But all this exercising and practising was worth it, and i started sort of loving to keep my head inside water and kick hard. Each time i started feeling breathless, i thought of her and the last few days...... how she told she didn't want to be wid me anymore, and how i sent her two offensive-words packed e-mails, saying that i didn't care for her anymore. This whole thing gave me a kind of frustration, and i started to kick the water even more, like wanting to come out of the circumstances i was coping with.....
And then, when i raised my head outside the water, and removed my googles, I saw heavy rains, pouring more water in the already overflowing water pool. Now tht was what i call a scene of a lifetime. The large Swimming pool, with clear water shining over the light blue floor, the luminence throwing mast lights, the heavy rains trying to wet what was already wet, and the dark, thunderous clouds, on the background of the strangely silent, pitch black sky.

They say, Rome was not built in a day, and similarily, swimming can't be learnt in a single day (or evening, rather). Still, praddy says i would be learning how to swim in less than a week. Let's hope so.By the way, one thing is clear, its much fun ,and a different experience altogether.

Why am i happy? Coz' today i got a reason to live again. Since the last few days, i was carrying on my mundane IIT life, and the relationship disaster was eating my head up. Getting the aim to learn swimming has come as a change, and would surely help to get back my lost efficiency and confidence. I am planning to learn guitar, too, but it would be rather early to say anything about that plan right now.

All in all, i am literally doing many things to get myself engaged in something or the other, for i know i think a lot, and thinking all day with no work at hand is like counting the days remaining in your life, and regretting of having wasted it all. I dread an unemployed myself, i really do !!