And people say i am self obsessed...

"You know what, you are pretty much self-obsessed. You think that other people are very much interested in your life, and hence you reflect ur life's happenings in your status messages of gtalk and stuff like that.
And you don't spare even trivial things, like, today my fan is not working etc.
We mock you and your self obsession in our class. Its fun to do that. No Complaints..."

and he hung up. My friend's friend. Whom i have not even seen. And this allegation on me was not the first one. I have had a history of me being charged for being very much self obsessed, self centered, self conscious,self -selfed and stuff like that. About an year ago, one of my friends commented that i always kept explaining about my actions and my life, and anyone who remains in contact wid me for even a day, can know about me entirely...Recently one of my seniors said that she could easily know what's happening in my life by just reading my status messages of
gtalk. What more, only last week, i got a scrap on orkut, which read,
"you are very much boasting, try to be in reality."
and the writer was some 'red rose' (obviously a fake profile, or someone who doesn't wish to disclose his\her name).

And all this made me think bout the roots of all this. Are these complaints, criticisms or compliments?
Depends. From person to person. OK, let us deal this issue scientifically.

First question. What makes people think that i am "self obsessed" ?

Answer: While other ppl's status messages, internet profiles etc constitute of regular phrases like 'dnd' or 'life sucks' or 'happy new year' or other non self involving words, mine is a snapshot of my current mindframe. While other ppl's net albums have got scenic views, film star wallpapers and low resolution - pics, mine consists of many picasa rendered, high resolution pics, flaunting me and the world around me. And that makes people think that i am trying to show my pics to all and i like to tell everyone about my life.

Second Question :What irritates people to such an extent that they use scraps and calls and conversations to tell me that i AM self obsessed?

Answer: OK,lemme tell you one thing first, not many people tell me these kinds of things,but yes, 2-3 do.As for the answer to this question, well, even i don't know the reason.May be the presence of one black sheep in the herd of white sheeps on gtalk and orkut makes them feel to dosomething about it,the least being,to tell the sheep that 'thou art black'.

NOW THE BIG QUESTION: why do i keep such weird status messages and self centered pics in my profiles??? Why do i wish to tell ppl what is going in my life, who give a damn to even my existance???

AND THE BIG ANSWER:Folks, don't misinterpret me.I don't wish to throw my life on you. Some REASONS for my special gtalk messages are:

1.I am a regular diary entery making person, and even you know that a diary entry revolves round the person who writes it.And needless to say,my status messages and profiles are pretty much influenced by my diary entries.

2.I like to personalize things. As i spend too much time on internet surfing, so it makes me feel happy to see if my profile and status messages reflect my current thoughts.Its like standing in front of a mirror.

3.I have got nothing to hide from anyone, and i don't care if anone enters my personal life. In fact, i enjoy the invasion...

4.This is a normal development of the pshychic self centered kid, who had been surrounded by many friends in his child life, who used to be pretty much involved in his life and its developments...

5.I like to go through other people's profile and status messages on internet, and guess whats going on in their lives, so, maybe,on a sub conscious level, i leave clues to my life for the people who think like me. But yes, this is highly non intensional.

6.I hate regular machine answer type profiles and messages.I like them living and colourful, full of individualism.

7.And last but not the least, ppl, i do have a circle of some old friends, some fans and some admirers, who closely follow me and want to hear from me about my life, though not directly from the horse's mouth.


Eh, yet another long post...as if i care...

So, my dear friends, if you still feel that i am very self lovig, self obsessed, narcissist and egoistic kinda person, do meet me someday and have a hearty chat with a cup of coffee.I think u'll discover a different me, one who loves to listen to others, and talks very very less about himself.

And if this post strengthened ur view that i am self all... ha, can't help you,buddy.


But one thing is for sure, hum nahi sudhrenge... as the ever cherished

song of Bon Jovi goes...

My life is like an open highway,
as frankie said i did it my way,
I just wanna live when i'm alive.
Its MY LIFE.